Brother

8/5/2023

My baby brother is being arraigned for murder this morning. I rolled over in bed for day three of the nightmare. I can’t tell if the way we all feel is getting better or worse. I do know that I’m able to move out of my bed today.

Wednesday night through Thursday night I laid in my bed in the exact position in which I took the phone call. I’m told that’s shock. It feels like emotional influenza. My ribs still ache from crying.

Every single person in my family is blaming themselves. If my dad had been around more often. If my mom had reached out and provided comfort. We are all to blame and therefore none of us are to blame.